Archive for September, 2005

courage n commitment

Tuesday, September 27th, 2005

hmm…life is liddat…when u start 2 settled down in ur daily life…evtime… bcame so routine n normal…u would tink dat…ur better of dis way…n doesnt want any changes…but did u realise dat…living in such normal life..ull start 2 wonder u lost sometime essential in life…’courage’ …courage to take new chances, changes , challenges..etc..commitment and courage cant stay away from each other..infact they are twins n exist together…to take commitments requires big courage…really big courage…to encounter the fear of been hurt again, da stress n burden..<– to be continued…feedback are welcomed

die!

Saturday, September 17th, 2005

oh god! wad mi gonna du!? i m looking through chapter 15…and i dunno a single ting…oh noo..i die la dis time…really regret last time din build a proper base…die la dis die la..all my hopes n dreams gone…die die die…im got a mother fucking feeling im gonna failed dis chapter..god help!

the story continues

Friday, September 16th, 2005

hi, im here again…sitting here 2continue da blog…but 2day..is a bit different..im really sick rite now..da feeling is like last year i entered hospital…well lets continue wif my story..2day…was kinda fine at 1st… had a gud time…but tings changed rite b4 da nite end…i sed sumting stupid which recalls all da memory..well…i du admit dat is my greatest regret i ever haf all my life….but..du we v nid 2 live our lifes keep haunted by past??? y cant v jz live happily as time pass? v cant jz put da pst away n turn on a new leaf? hu neva made its mistake b4??? GOD  y u haf 2 be so mean?? last time..evtime..i tried 2 gif up but finally did not? is it last time i sud jz gif up..so i wont know how important dis ting is 2me? i haf tried most of da possible ways…to make tings easier…y cant u jus let it go??   god…y? cant v jz start from here all over again when evting is finally fine..i haf changed..i haf regreted…does wad happen last time muz happen dis time??? evting in da present is finally fine..i finally able 2 change……im diff dy…cant u c god? OMFG i coughing out blood..wat the fark!?…gtg<–to be continued!

true..but i cant do anyting bout it…

Friday, September 16th, 2005

Can time heal back a broken heart?

Can time heal a broken relationship?

Can time heal dissapointment?

Can time heal unfaithfulness?

Can time heal the pain?

As time passes, we will lose our beloved ones.

Even when we broke someone’s heart, we thoughtthat time can heal that kind of pain.

In fact, as timepasses by, our relationship will grow cold andfinally end up with guilt and regret.

Please try yourbest to mend back the broken relationship now oryou will regret when you lost somebody that isimportant to you.

Disappoinment grow as the timetickling away and the pain will get worse each day.

Appreciate and use your time wisely with your
beloved ones.

dunno wad to do !

Thursday, September 15th, 2005

blue colour jz like wad im feeling rite now…sighh…..sienznya!!!..well i got off a good start in da war…v can say im in da right path for da glory…im jz hoping i dun screw it up dis like i usually do…but sum how i got da feeling i will!y? my engine giving sounds dy… well da next ting is da day is almost here…dunno wad im goin to du!? still cant decide..im scared of rejection anymore or i jz duwan 2 screwed da present tings up???aiyah!!! dunnolah..all i know is i wan, but im confused, i cudnt dcide….im restless, im coughing like shit!!!ohh my God , tell me wad 2 du lah!…gime sum farking pointers la!

tHe w@r has jz St@rted

Tuesday, September 13th, 2005

yeahyeah…u muz b thinking y mi so no life writing blogs rite?well….hate to admit it..me dy kinda no life wakaka…well jz finish my stupid static test…it was alrite…but da worst ting is i regreted study till so late hours…wheres da stupid farking question are so basic…man..wad a waste of energy…but tink back is beta easier than hard rite…aiya human are liddat one la alwiz cari pasal..muahaha..sigh…i was so happy it finally ended..but cum back 2 tink…’this’ ended it means da finals are jz around da corner? OMFG ! man! the war hasn’t no end..its jz one of da battles..da 1st few battle are quite tough…man da coming battles are even worst! im not well prepared at all…i haf not been attending classes..GOSH! will i flung dis semester!? when come 2 tink bout it ,it really scares me…sigh…life basiclly has been very routine…no drastic changes..my blues and regrets still wif me…da ting i wanted most..still very far from reach..sigh kinda weird..it jz rite in front of me but is so hard to reach, is jz like it has barrier between us….GOD wad can i do , to get it back…im really struggling without it…god it has been months…y cant u give me a chance…dun i deserve da chance? ill do anyting! dat day is reaching near…but it seeems it doesnt matter to someone anymore…kinda sad…at 1st  i tot is doesnt matter 2 me either but i jz dunno y …y life muz be liddat….cant it been a simple and straight road and every1 is happy? <–tell me?

battling a loosing war…

Monday, September 12th, 2005

its exactly 2.19 am ..oh wait its 2.21…oh gosh…time is moving fast…im still right here struggling like fighting dis loosing war….wonder y da hell im doin dis….knowing da fact dat…i mite loose this war…but im fighting here like shit …OMFG …please bless me…i duwan to loose..i duwan 2look bad in front of ******…gosh….wtf im toking here…frenz ! help me! wake me up when september ends…anyway gtg now….im freaking sick here n still hafto battle this fucking war…gosh!!! btw…im gonna  continue my story soon…wonder i i could survive dis?

New blog posting

Monday, September 12th, 2005

GOSH IM FUCKING NO LIFE! here my new blog site! http://jzblind.blogspot.com

learn

Monday, September 12th, 2005

Learn to love the people who are with
you at
present.
Forget the people in the past and thank them for
hurting you,
which led you to love the people you have right
now.
When you love someone, you’ll do crazy things
you can’t explain, you’ll deny the truth and believe
in lies.
When you love someone, you sacrifice,
give everything you’ve got and don’t think twice.
You risk it all no matter what.
Everything in life is temporary because everything
changes.
That is why it takes courage to love,
knowing it might end anytime…
having faith will make it last.

Friends are not the one who laugh when you laugh
……..and cry when you cry.
They are the ones who make you laugh and stop
you from crying
Love is the feeling we fall in and out of,
and everytime we fall off, we learn to hold on
tighter…
hoping that next time, we may never have to let go.
They say when love knocks at your door, open it .
But do you know that sometimes love enters
through the back door???
……and before you begin tonotice it, it’s on
it’s way
out!!!
"Lucky is the man who wins the first love of a
woman,
but luckier is the woman who wins the last love of
a man".
Love is not the right word to say when you feel
guilty,
nor the right word to say when you like a person,
but love really matters when we share our
thoughts,
our minds, and our hearts…
Life has a way of changing things,
but not the joy that friendship brings,
for friendship is like the shining moon,
makes each night a brighter one.
Love is not for beauty or color of the skin,
but for a heart that is loyal within,
for beauty fades and the skin would grow old…
but a heart that is loyal will never turn cold.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your
heart,
forgive them for they have helped you learn
about trust and the importance of being cautious to
whom you open your heart.
A love is easy to feel, so hard to explain;
so easy to get, so hard to let go;
so easy to spell, so hard to define…
and yet everyone is still taking the risk.
…and that’s called love !
We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird,
and when we find someone whose weirdness is
compatible with ours,
we join up with them and fall
in love in mutual weirdness and call it LOVE!
Never be afraid to fall in love.
It may hurt a lot…
it may give you aches and pain,
but if you don’t follow your heart;
in the end you will cry even more
for not giving love a chance.
Don’t run ahead of God. Let Him direct your steps.
He has plans and He has His time.
God’s clock is never one minute early nor one
minute late.
It always strikes right on time.
If someone loves you, love them back not only
because they love you,
but also because they are teaching you to love…
and opening your heart and eyes
to things you have never seen or felt without them.
The past is meant to be used as a tool for the
future.
Bad experiences indeed make you bitter
but the lessons learned should make you better.
When you find arms that will hold you at your
weakest,
eyes that will see you at your ugliest,
lips that will kiss you in both instances,
and a heart that will love you at your worst,
then you have found true love!!!
Someday, someone might come into your life
and love you in a way you always wanted.
If your someday was yesterday.. LEARN!!!
If your someday is tomorrow.. HOPE!!!
If your someday is today.. CHERISH!!!

tada! guess wat? im screwed!

Saturday, September 10th, 2005

1st of all, thanks luilui for da advice…it realli helps..sometimes when u feel dat..no1 dat cud jz gif u a proper advice…and sudd…somehow ppl popout and give u a nice 1..thanx amy..anyway back here..well its exactly 8pm…im supposed to finish my technical drawing and 2 lab reports and study for my coming tests…but somehow i cudnt jz do it…im feeling really restless right now..sumting is really bothering me…me i jz cudnt knw wad is dat!gosh! im confused…at 1st , i tot tings are goin fine at last..but sumhow it turns out not..sigh..jz like yesterday..i totally screwed up wad i called a one fine day…but *** is having sum prob***, blah blah blah..there cums da misunderstanding…and there goes da evening..sigh..i cudnt recalled da last time i slept well…its like i dunno wad is like to sleep anymore..tings are alwiz bothering my mind…wad can i du! sum1 help me plz! i nid help! arrghhh shit! got tonnes of work..but im haf been a procrastinator..omg! f**k! god! if ur there! can u jz gimme a small hand and settle da misery and my blues? its has been 19 years u been keeping ur eyes close…cudnt u haf sum sympathy on me…??pls i beg u……gosh..im so darn hungry now..but dunno sud i eat or finish my workload 1st?hmmm…tough choice!